'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs, from ten thousand lightning bugs

Okay, I've been thinking about this song I've been playing on repeat all day. ^_^

Obviously, the song is about losing childhood and innocence(or so I believe) and that it's kind of scary growing-up. Well...In a sense...I don't have to grow up. I regress too much to where it's become an almost all day thing! It comforts me, and since my doctors say since I have too many disorders to be able to function in a working atmosphere, I won't have to work. I am on SSI, so that's fixed. So, with all this extra time, I just regress and play.

And that's something special.

"No, you're just messed-up!"

Yes and no. I am sick, but I get to live my life the way tons of people would like to. Happy, carefree, and with Alice in Wonderland playing in the background whenever I'm doing something!

I told my mom this and she says it's a good way to look at my regression. It's not a good way. It's the only way.

-Merry

This idea actually came from Hug_Machine @ LJ! Link! Read her entire post to learn how to make your own smile pile at home. :D

Now for the meme:

1. Comment with anything you want to say.
2. I will then say something nice, post a cute picture to make you smile, or reply with a funny video!
3. Your job then is to continue this and make other people smile! ^_^


:D

-Merry

There is this site with Artificial Intelligence, and it talks to you! XD

Here is my conversation:

User: Are Pleiadians real?

Cleverbot: No are you?

User: Yes.

Cleverbot: What planet are you from?

User: Earth.

Cleverbot: I am from Earth too.

User: Awesome.

Cleverbot: What state are you from?

User: What makes you think I'm from a state?

Cleverbot: Are you in college?

User: No.

Cleverbot: Are you working?

User: No.

Cleverbot: What grade are you in?

User: I'm not in a grade.

Cleverbot: Do you have parents?

User: Doesn't everybody?

Cleverbot: No. Some people's parents are dead.

User: They still have them in a sense.

Cleverbot: But you don't.

User: Yes, you do.

Cleverbot: Yes I do.

User: And so do I?

Cleverbot: What do you fear?

User: Odd things.

Cleverbot: Yes, very odd.

User: Mmmmhmmm...

Cleverbot: Mmmm.

Here is the link if you're interested! A bit scary that it's fake intelligence, and yet... XD

-Merry

Man, I love how the staff of DW loves their users and actually posts NEWS, not advertising or something stupid like that. :) It's really nice to see what's going on, you know?

I wish more of my friends from LJ would come here! I have one who uses both, and one person was interested but I don't have any invite codes. -_- They don't know what they're missing! ^_^ But then again, most of my LJ friends are depressing me or post about things I don't care about. At least here, I have friends who share my interests, and are WILLING to comment! Man, I have over 90 comments received here I think, and there no one comments unless I post something very depressing, in which they flock to! I don't understand it. I post something good, no comments. Something sad/bad, a billion comments. -_-

Anyway, I think I'll go back to sleep now.

-Merry

I hate the dentist, and guess who's going tomorrow at two o'clock? Me. My mom set me up an appointment today, and I'll have to go. I'm not afraid of the cleaning, just of what they might find!

How is everyone else's Monday? Besides the dentist stuff, I'm fine. I slept good. I'm still trying to get used to the new time. :P I mean, I wake up at what is now six o'clock thinking it's almost eight. -_-

Oh! This Saturday, I'm going to hang out at my friend Teresa's house. :) She's a little older than my mom, but she acts more like a really, really cool aunt. ^_^ And my real aunt is not cool at all, but very bossy. -_- No fun there. So, I've adopted Teresa as my aunt.

I'm going to go make-up my bed now. It's all bunched together at one side. XD

-Merry

I just had to...Upload all my favorite Christmas icons and put up a Christmasy layout! ^_^ I have an obsession about Christmas, so yeah....

I'm currently enjoying one of my winter pastimes: listening to 1234 by Feist on repeat and smelling a nice candle. ^_^

I think I'm getting a cold, because I keep having fevers, and my head keeps hurting. -_-

Oh, well! I think I might lay down. :)

-Merry

Gah! I changed my mind! Doing nano, wrote 539 word story. Need to write 3 more today! O_O *runs around in a panic* Ahhhhh!

Well, I went to the 'Fall Festival' for some candy, because I'm weird like that. XD And...I hardly got any, got many weird looks, and was basically treated like shit. -_- I took about 30-40 minutes dressing up as a fairy(with wings!), and for what? To be ignored and looked at like I was too old. SO WHAT IF I'M 19! HALLOWEEN SHOULD BE FOR EVERYONE!!!!!

Makes me mad. And they were handing out Bibles. -_- A PAGAN HOLIDAY TURNED A-LA AMERICAN! NOT CHRISTIAN! HELLO?! I was Pagan for a few years, and even though I'm mostly spiritual now, it still pisses me off when people do shit like this.

X-RAY THE CANDY AT THE HOSPITAL, CHECK IT YOURSELF, OR DON'T LET THEM GO IF YOU'RE SOOOO AFRAID OF POISON OR RAZOR BLADES!

I hate trunk-or-treats....

I wonder...Is it bad that I like to watch Max and Ruby on Nick Jr. everyday? I really wished they would show Little Bear though. XD See, most of these kiddie cartoons teach you something, and those two don't. ^_^ And the shows on Nick are horrible. Most of them are stupid shows for tweens, Spongebob, or some stupid random cartoon. So, in the morning, it's Max and Ruby. :P And there's hardly anything good on Cartoon Network, and there's even less on Disney. -_- YES I AM A CHILD IN MY INTERESTS! XD So what if I'm 19 and I like cartoons. :P

Oh, I beat a thing in Super Mario 64 for Nintendo DS last night. ^_^ I feel really good about that! :D I've been stuck at that section for a long time! Now I have to go to the haunted house.

-Merry