'Cause I'd get a thousand hugs, from ten thousand lightning bugs

Okay, I've been thinking about this song I've been playing on repeat all day. ^_^

Obviously, the song is about losing childhood and innocence(or so I believe) and that it's kind of scary growing-up. Well...In a sense...I don't have to grow up. I regress too much to where it's become an almost all day thing! It comforts me, and since my doctors say since I have too many disorders to be able to function in a working atmosphere, I won't have to work. I am on SSI, so that's fixed. So, with all this extra time, I just regress and play.

And that's something special.

"No, you're just messed-up!"

Yes and no. I am sick, but I get to live my life the way tons of people would like to. Happy, carefree, and with Alice in Wonderland playing in the background whenever I'm doing something!

I told my mom this and she says it's a good way to look at my regression. It's not a good way. It's the only way.

-Merry

Today, I've been really regressed! For those new on my flist, check the regressed tag, and you'll know what I mean by it. :)

I've been playing with my new toys today. It got them with my own money. ^_^ And I have four dollars left! It was only $20, but still!

I got a game set thing. I was disappointed, because one of the playing boards is flimsy while the other is hard. -_- DOES NOT MAKE SENSE! And I knew the pieces would be plastic, so I'm okay with that, but the pick-up sticks with it are plastic as well. I FEEL LIKE A MORON! THE BOX LIED TO ME! -_- It looked really cool, and since I opened it up, I can't return it. :(

And I got a little pink/purple Etch-A-Sketch, which is awesome. And some Cinderella themed playing cards that are really cute.

Still feel stupid though. :(

-Merry