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[miss_merry_chan]

Gah! I always end up having a 'break-down' about every two weeks or so. :(

What happened last night was this:

I read some great articles online about some religious/spiritual stuff. I knew my mom would be interested and she was, and when I told her that I now wanted to change myself for the better, she said all I had to do was 'be the best person I could be'. Yes, that is true, but I meant like, ummm, not gossiping, eating better, going away from 'dark' things and false truths, and so on. I told her that she didn't understand what I was saying, and she told me(instead of maybe asking me what I meant) was that she did understand and she scared me with this glare of hers. :(

And now, I understand why atheists are so pissed off at christianity. Because it's all fake. Yes, Jesus was real, but people faked his life into a book that contradicts itself! One side, God is fucking evol(yes I meant to spell it that way!), and the other side, God is nice. O_O Does not compute. *explodes* Here are the links to what I learned last night. If you don't believe it, fine, but please don't judge me like my mom did, 'kay? :P

After all that, I was in my room, crying, and she came in with my dinner. And she asked me why I was upset, and I proceeded to tell her I was a loser(I dunno either) and that I don't do anything. She took it and then I got down about other things. :(

Anyway, I'm feeling better now, trust me. :D

-Merry

Comments

[snoissesbo]

Pseudo-Atheist speaking *points at self*

What I don't like about Christianity is not necessarily the fakeness of it. All religions and beliefs have their share of imagination. It's the way it has been twisted around. The way I see it, Jesus came up and said "be nice, help out how you can, don't worry about material gain and don't waste your energy hating others, and you will feel much better and find peace and be a better person and you will die happy" and then the Church came up and said "do everything we say, be what we want you to be, give us all your money and material gain and don't you DARE disobey or being different or you're gonna FUCKING BURN IN HELL!" Quite a difference in message there.

I don't mind hearing about other people's beliefs and/or religion and/or spirituality. I like it, actually. I like learning about it and if it is presented in a respectful way, I will listen wide eyed and ask questions. What I hate is how the majority of people try to convert me (or each other, really) to their beliefs. I like to have the freedom of forming my own opinion, thankyouverymuch.

However (and that is why I refer to myself as a pseudo-atheist and not an atheist) I do believe that God/Gods/Goddesses/Whatever exists. That is simply because I believe that when one person invests incredible amounts of energy, time and devotion into something, it is going to exist somewhere in the universe (or at least in their heart and mind, I'll spare you the low-astral theory) so why couldn't it be the case for what thousands and thousands of people have invested energy, time and devotion into?

Ah, anyway, I'm being long-winded there. Sorry about that.

I'm sorry that happened to you (I have the same sort of problems with my mom, actually) but it's good to know you're feeling better now :)

[miss_merry_chan]

What I don't like about Christianity is not necessarily the fakeness of it. All religions and beliefs have their share of imagination. It's the way it has been twisted around. The way I see it, Jesus came up and said "be nice, help out how you can, don't worry about material gain and don't waste your energy hating others, and you will feel much better and find peace and be a better person and you will die happy" and then the Church came up and said "do everything we say, be what we want you to be, give us all your money and material gain and don't you DARE disobey or being different or you're gonna FUCKING BURN IN HELL!" Quite a difference in message there.

That's what I was trying to say! Yes! You said it better than I could have. :)

I have to agree. I like my own opinion and whenever I try to talk to my mom, she'll either fake interest or look at my weird and basically tell me I'm wrong. O_o

Ah, it's okay about the long comment! I enjoyed it! :D

[margaretdriscoll]

We don't know for sure what Jesus did or didn't say. We never will. We also can't say for sure if the people who put their oral traditions on paper were recording what they felt was 100% true or not. We don't know the answer to that, and never will. We also can't fully understand what it was like to live in biblical times, and what exactly their version of "loving" and "nice" might have been. We, or biblical "experts", can guess- but none of us can know for sure.

I personally am not Christian, but I have a high level of respect for any religion and/or world view that helps its believers lead a life of kindness, giving, charity, and acceptance. Some Christians fit into that category, and some don't.

I'm sorry you had such a rough night, though. Emotions definitely run high over religion. I'm glad you're feeling better today ♥

[bostonwifeandmom]

I don't judge anyone. My dad was a deacon. I was raised to believe things that I now know wasn't true but then again, so was he but now that he's gone... it's too complicated to explain really but I don't judge you at all. I'm sorry your mom scared you with that look :(