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miss_merry_chan) wrote2009-11-09 08:44 am
miss_merry_chan) wrote2009-11-09 08:44 am
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Gah! I always end up having a 'break-down' about every two weeks or so. :(
What happened last night was this:
I read some great articles online about some religious/spiritual stuff. I knew my mom would be interested and she was, and when I told her that I now wanted to change myself for the better, she said all I had to do was 'be the best person I could be'. Yes, that is true, but I meant like, ummm, not gossiping, eating better, going away from 'dark' things and false truths, and so on. I told her that she didn't understand what I was saying, and she told me(instead of maybe asking me what I meant) was that she did understand and she scared me with this glare of hers. :(
And now, I understand why atheists are so pissed off at christianity. Because it's all fake. Yes, Jesus was real, but people faked his life into a book that contradicts itself! One side, God is fucking evol(yes I meant to spell it that way!), and the other side, God is nice. O_O Does not compute. *explodes* Here are the links to what I learned last night. If you don't believe it, fine, but please don't judge me like my mom did, 'kay? :P
After all that, I was in my room, crying, and she came in with my dinner. And she asked me why I was upset, and I proceeded to tell her I was a loser(I dunno either) and that I don't do anything. She took it and then I got down about other things. :(
Anyway, I'm feeling better now, trust me. :D
-Merry
What happened last night was this:
I read some great articles online about some religious/spiritual stuff. I knew my mom would be interested and she was, and when I told her that I now wanted to change myself for the better, she said all I had to do was 'be the best person I could be'. Yes, that is true, but I meant like, ummm, not gossiping, eating better, going away from 'dark' things and false truths, and so on. I told her that she didn't understand what I was saying, and she told me(instead of maybe asking me what I meant) was that she did understand and she scared me with this glare of hers. :(
And now, I understand why atheists are so pissed off at christianity. Because it's all fake. Yes, Jesus was real, but people faked his life into a book that contradicts itself! One side, God is fucking evol(yes I meant to spell it that way!), and the other side, God is nice. O_O Does not compute. *explodes* Here are the links to what I learned last night. If you don't believe it, fine, but please don't judge me like my mom did, 'kay? :P
After all that, I was in my room, crying, and she came in with my dinner. And she asked me why I was upset, and I proceeded to tell her I was a loser(I dunno either) and that I don't do anything. She took it and then I got down about other things. :(
Anyway, I'm feeling better now, trust me. :D
-Merry